I don't know..

what i was thinking
when i thought
that you might
want to be
a part of
my world.
I don't know
what I was thinking
when you had me
breathless
when you had me
helpless
I don't know
what I was thinking
when I thought
I knew you
when I thought
I could have you.
I don't know
what I was thinking
when you had me
feeling vulnerable
when you had me
thinking we could be,
more than nothing.
Had me thinking
thoughts of something,
but it's nothing.
I don't know what
I was thinking
Going crazy with
the thought of possibilities
I was thinking
that you're perfect.
I don't know what
I was thinking
the only nite you
let down your guard
the only nite you'd
tell me how you
might really feel.
I dont know what
I was thinking
when you told me
you were torn.
When you told me
it wasn't easy
for you either.
I don't know what
I was thinking
when I thought
I was wanted
when I thought
you meant what
you said.
I don't know what
I could ever do
to get close to you
Seems almost
impossible
to be next
to you.
I dont know what
I was thinking
when I thought I had
a chance
When I thought
you thought
I was
beautiful.
I don't know what
I've been thinking
lately I haven't been
me.
I haven't been
real.
I've been thinking
I need to impress you,
stressing you.
I don't know what
it is about you,
that makes me laugh
that makes me smile
that makes me feel
nervous to be around
you.
I don't know what
you'd think if you
ever knew
I felt this way.
You probably
wouldn't act
the same.
Everything is
always
a game.
you got me.
I dont know what
I was thinking.

Horoscope

The desire for perfection can be a very admirable trait. However, exacting influences may lead you to take the desire for perfection to unfeasible extremes. It will be important to listen to the advice of your peers or colleagues. As with Virgo, make some room to chill with friends later this evening!

OMgWedding!

Not mine, of course, but I am a bridesmaid in my cousin's wedding! The weather is absolutely gorgeous. It probably couldn't be a nicer day :) It's 8am and I have to start getting ready ASAP. There's still so much to do! Cocktail hour starts at five, so it's going to be a good day!

Horoscope:
Opt for a peaceful and quiet day today. Damage limitation should be your aim. Avoid getting embroiled in other people’s dramas: stay neutral; be a little non-committal; don’t take sides. As with a couple of other signs you could find that there’s little you can do to counteract the pesky influences until this evening!

(today will be peaceful, but I can assure you, not quiet!)

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HOROSCOPE.

If you feel that something is on the brink of change, or that the air is electric with possibilities, then you're already picking up imminent planetary changes, which will impact your love life. For today though, don't try to engineer changes. Be patient until tomorrow!

[april sixteen] 2008

Study. Study. Study. Today is going to be a LONG day.

SOMETIMES...

I don't know where dreams end and reality beings.
Sometimes I feel disconnected from the world or the world is disconnected from me.
Sometimes frustration crashes down on me like the waves I love in the summertime.
Sometimes I try to understand what you're thinking until I can't hear my own thoughts.
Sometimes I lose myself until I'm found again.
Sometimes I don't care.
Sometimes I want to let go because I don't think I can hold on.
Sometimes my actions speak louder than my words or my words are what cause your actions.
Sometimes I don't know when to stop even before I started to go.
Sometimes I wanted to pick you up, but I let you fall.
Sometimes when I laughed I really wanted to cry.
Sometimes I smile until my face hurts.
Sometimes I'm perfectly fine without you.
Sometimes I feel inspired.
Sometimes I want to walk until I start to stumble.
Sometimes I'm healthy.
Sometimes I really don't care.
Sometimes you move me until I can't move.
Sometimes you hold my hand.
Sometimes my heart breaks to become whole.
Sometimes I live to learn.
Sometimes I exist because of you.
Sometimes you miss me more than I miss you.
Sometimes you are vulnerable.
Sometimes it feels so nice.
Sometimes we could be what wasn't meant to be.
I don't know where dreams end and reality begins.